Think what different am I suppossed to do ? Don't want to be a part of the crowd...
But then what difference can my existence make....?
Have I still not understood the reason of being in this place?
Intentions are to make it worth....
It has become a routine to interrogate myself
But do I have answers for them?
Do I have answers for myself????

It's time...!!!

Breathing is heavy...

Brain is stressed

Aware about the mistakes, I am

Still not sure how to correct

Mind wants to try hard and harder,

However heart doesn't seem to hear...

Independence is what I seek today

Sure about the ultimate purpose

Vision is something still in vague

Seems to be yet in dark...

But now it's time... time to be certain about uncertain things

To find what I really want

To find the sole reason of my existence.....

Once More......

Scared to be happy again...

scared to repeat all those things again....

being loyal... being honest... 

never lead to any destination...

hence even this time not sure..

whether to do that again...

things seem to be great at start...

but am afraid that they won't remain the same forever........

hopes are always that they be the way I think.... but.... life is not always about being perfect....

yet.... got a heart that's stupid... which never stops dreaming....
and even after all the heart breaks...

 it says.... 

"once more"......

A Happy Turn..:)

Happy are the words I say,

happy are the songs I sing.......

Happy are the days that pass,

happy are the experiences I feel.....

Happy i felt yesterday,

happy am feeling today.....

Just one small wish to make,

is happy I feel always....!!!

Who am I???

Lets not try to pretend, that I know everything

lets not try to pretend, that I am right.....

lets not try to behave perfect always

lets not assume, what might be someone's life.......

lets just stop pointing others

lets just concentrate on how am I, as a soul

lets just try to find out who am I, for once

just once....!!!

The True Meaning...!!!!

At times I just keep wondering.... when someone expresses their love by saying..... "I love you".... do they really mean it or they actually fake it all the time....

Nowadays these three magical words has lost their true meaning... it has become so casual, that every now and then everyone says... "I love you".... to there friends.... to there parents... to strangers.... 

But how will one come to know that which expression is the real one????? who all are those who are saying it just for the sake of it and who all are those who really....really mean it...??? hell loads of questions here....!!!

but all are yet
 unanswered....

miss you...!!!

Missing someone means what??? It might be that there is some one special out there.... whom you miss if they are not close to you....

Whom you want to talk... but their cell phone replies... "not reachable"..... want to laugh... but your unable to share the joke.... want to hold hand... but the touch is missing..... want to hug... but those cozy  arms are far away on steering wheel.... want to kiss... but you will just have to be happy remembering the last one....

But does that person misses you back..??? Now that's an untold story... that's something which you can't be sure about... that's something which you'll have to find on your own... but is it easy to even find it out..??? I don't think so.... What to do..? Shall you ask them directly.... yes you can... but what surety you have that they are saying the truth... may be for this you must have faith in them... faith in their words... in their behavior.. in their love towards you....

 You also have faith in them...but how would you know that the faith which you have shown in them is worth..??? That though you trust them... you love them... does they love u back... though they might say this thousands of times... that "yes... i love u lottt sweetheart...." is it really true..??? How would you know... because as a matter of fact... their actions doesn't match their words....

It only seems that simply you miss them.... and they don't... only you want to talk... and they don't.... only you want to share... and they don't.... only you feel the pain and they don't... only you want a tight hug... and they don't.... only you love them... and..........again they don't....!!!!

Now... what should be done..? Is it that you have chosen a wrong person..??? Or have they changed?? or were they always the same and it is you who started expecting a bit more..??? Or shall you just not try and change them...!!! But you expect something else.... which they don't even care about... now what???

NOW WHAT ???